I am afraid that he will die
and you won't call me.
I am afraid that she will die
and I will have to call you.
If you or I die,
don't worry
(you never do).
We won't have to talk
(I hope).
untitled summer 2008 by not-in-my-head, literature
Literature
untitled summer 2008
My body and soul was once a stream of pure light. As I've lived and experienced different things in my life, mud has been thrown on me and marred my purity. It's inevitable and not all bad. Experiences define who we become. They literally shape us, but it doesn't mean we can't do a little soul-cleaning, a little damage-control to keep ourselves clear-minded, unencumbered by our pasts and silly mistakes. Some people make the mistake of identifying their still-glowing entities as flaws in their mud-covered souls. They pull over more clay, no matter how much it cracks, to fix these seeming flaws.
I want to un-crack.
Flake off.
I know I
"Worrying is a waste of imagination."
-Wendy Dasler Johnson
"Without language, thought is a vague, unchartered nebula."
-Saussure
"Guilt is not an effective emotion. You can't get anything done with it."
-Sara N-N
I used to do these bold things with color
arching across the page
blending and playing with boundaries
smudging seams
of things
background / foreground
I couldn't prioritize them.
Relationships aren't as blurry now
and I create less
but I'm O.K., I think -
With what I have.
With what I've defined for myself.
I am afraid that he will die
and you won't call me.
I am afraid that she will die
and I will have to call you.
If you or I die,
don't worry
(you never do).
We won't have to talk
(I hope).
untitled summer 2008 by not-in-my-head, literature
Literature
untitled summer 2008
My body and soul was once a stream of pure light. As I've lived and experienced different things in my life, mud has been thrown on me and marred my purity. It's inevitable and not all bad. Experiences define who we become. They literally shape us, but it doesn't mean we can't do a little soul-cleaning, a little damage-control to keep ourselves clear-minded, unencumbered by our pasts and silly mistakes. Some people make the mistake of identifying their still-glowing entities as flaws in their mud-covered souls. They pull over more clay, no matter how much it cracks, to fix these seeming flaws.
I want to un-crack.
Flake off.
I know I
"Worrying is a waste of imagination."
-Wendy Dasler Johnson
"Without language, thought is a vague, unchartered nebula."
-Saussure
"Guilt is not an effective emotion. You can't get anything done with it."
-Sara N-N
My new tattoo is amazing.
But more than that, I haven't been updating because what I have that is new I am submitting to SCJ, and may even take a couple pieces down so I can submit them, too.
Ces't la vie. Or whatever. However you spell it.
TTFN
I've been thinking about giving my page a good overhaul, or even just creating a totally new page. I already deleted my most favorited (and possibly most offensive) deviation.
I want to clean it up so I really have my best works up... and that really means I need to work more at creating art. I'm getting tired, and being tired makes me REALLY want to be lazy.
My newest response in my art conversation with ~skeevy (https://www.deviantart.com/skeevy) is up. I want to say things about it, but that's against the rules.
I'm still thinking about doing self-portraits.
If you read my journal, please recommend a good book. I finished the last one and need something new.
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